as ridiculous as it sounds.. oh how i feel like lupin in all the fan fiction i read. so much rushing to the surface. so much to hide. so much turmoil. there's nothing about the lupin in the books that i identify with. but in the fanfic. hell yeah.

burns my heart it does.

i'm not sure i want to keep on hoping for a fairytale ending. i refuse to give up my idealistic romantic dreams of life. but i'm not sure i can live up to something like that.